Private Pilot, Pancakes, & Piper Cubs! 👩🏽‍✈️🥞🐻

HEYYY all y’all, let me holler into the void to see who’s still there.

I KNOW I HAVEN’T POSTED.

But, ya girl’s been busy!

• I passed my checkride Friday July 20TH 2018!!! I’m now a private pilot!! WOOHOOO!!!

• I’m not going to San Diego for school anymore BOOHOOO!!!!

• I’m now studying for my IFR (books, not much flying cos I’m saving $$$)

• I might be getting a new job & moving on from being gas girl (line service). Not sure how to feel bc I love whereI work now at my local FBO (Fixed Base Operator).

• I’ve been trying to enjoy the month of August before school starts to just distress a little and sleep more!

• I’ve been working, hiking, swimming, studying, makin’ videoes, & slowly applying to more scholarships!

The past 2 months were CRAZY. I was under a lot of stress trying to get my checkride scheduled and passed, and San Diego was stressing me out because I had to buy tickets and figure out all these “moving to a new state logistics” that frankly I felt like my fried brain could barely handle. In the weeks before checkride, I felt like I couldn’t even process my own name but I still was too wired up at night to get any real sleep! So lack of sleep, stress, but I passed guys!! One of my friends got married the Saturday after, then the net Saturday my uncle got hitched and I filmed his wedding for him. And then shortly after my best friend tells me she is getting married next summer! All this happened in July. Of course, I’m now a pilot, my friends are getting hitched left and right, and also San Diego fell through so I now have to recalculate everything for the next couple years bc I’ll no longer be in a university program. Remember that fried brain of mine I was talking about? It wanted to give up on me. But no worries, I gave it some coffee AND 6-7 hrs of sleep instead of 4-5 and I think we’re back on track y’all!

Now, today, the end of August: what is my plan?

Friend, all I can say is I have no idea.

I love that this post is supposed to be just straight up “OH MY GOSH IMMA PILOT NOW IMMA GO FLY AND YAYY LIFE LOOK HOW COOL IT IS ALL MY DREAMS CAME TRUE BC IM A DISNEY GRANDMA” but life isn’t like that, so this post isn’t. What I mean is this was completely a surprise to me, the level of stress, uncertainty, & even fear I had this summer.

• I thought most of my big life decisions were over. I was wrong.

• I thought I’d be pursuing my dream at a college of my dreams. I was wrong.

• I thought I’d have a clearish cut path for the next 3 years when it came to school. Wrong.

• I thought this summer would be the happiest of my life. Wrong.

This summer has been one of the hardest of my life and I share this because I can’t really say it out loud, but y’all could probably guess it’s been hard because the lack of posts’. My faith & brain grew this Summer. I almost feel like it hurt. I think my brain cracked.

But I’ve been thinking about Joseph a lot. I may not be in a foreign land, but I look up to Joseph in everything he did. So that's what I've been learning internally, externally, well, August was when it really started to feel like Summer. I flew my CFIs new just-finished-being-built Piper J3 to a pancake breakfast!

The pictures of the bridge are from a hike I did recently haha, but they match the color scheme so I added them in to this blog post ;)

I'm not sure what my path looks like from here on out (ohh, I like it, "path", it matches the picture. Look how fancy I can be) but it's exciting because I'm only 20 but have so many big choices ahead of me. In a way, you can choose to be stressed or really excited, and I choose to be excited because that's better for your health anyway!

*maybe I'm just being really positive because my checkride is over....*